The Grumpy Part of the Blog Post
I don’t know about anyone else, but I feel the city is struggling today. The 6 inches of slush aren’t helping and I’m assuming a good deal of us were up later lamenting or celebrating the Patriots catching a lucky interception.
Whatever it is though, the city is iced over, and so is my brain. Nonetheless, I rolled out of bed at the regular time thanks to an extra few nudgy pats from Viola who must have noticed I put my morning alarm on too low a volume to hear.
I grumpily heard my landlady stomping around outside our door, who for some reason, has decided recently she no longer wants to have tenants and has been a ball of joy since. I sit down to write my morning pages with Grumpy McGee slamming things in the hallway and my ear is pounding. My ears haven’t been a fan of cooperating with my body for a few years now and when they act up, the room spins and it makes an odd popping sound if someone speaks too loudly. So if I ever give you this face: this is why.
I haven’t found a doctor yet (or insurance that covers an ENT) that tells me anything other than, “You have an ear infection!” To this I say, “Yes, that’s clear. But I seem to get them every other week soooo…what’s that about?” *shrugs shoulders, carries on being a doctor* Good talk, Doc, here’s $200.
Anyway, ears are angry, landlord is angry, Ginny is grumpy.
10 Good Days for a Bad Day
And then I start writing, and because the universe is good, there is coffee. I convince myself to not ignore yoga today, so Tiber and I spend a little longer in child’s pose ignoring the impending walk in the snow before attempting anything else. As the part approaches when I normally try balance poses, I am considering skipping them altogether. I can’t seem to move my head without feeling dizzy, so standing on one leg sounds like a recipe for falling into the coffee table.
And yet…I get there. I put up one leg and I don’t go down like a drunk flamingo. I feel woozy but I stay up. I don’t know why, but my one leg under me decides to stay under me, and I actually hold the pose for a decent amount of time. Because after one month of this, that’s just where my leg goes, even when I feel like crap. The good days are starting to support the bad ones, much to my surprise.
Turns out, your brain likes to feel nice
I finished Dan Harris’ book this morning, the one I talked about on Saturday, and lo and behold, there was a relevant explanation. He talks a bit about your brain’s preference to settle into a healthier pattern. A Yale Doctor, Judson Brewer, is doing a study on Mindfulness and meditation, and their effects on the part of our brain which focuses on self-awareness. He claims that once the mind is given a taste of something calmer, it will gravitate toward it, the same way we avoid things we dislike (say, the 6 train). All you need to do is give your mind this option continuously. Meditation is just one path to get there.
So here I am, NOT falling over, and I start to believe that a better morning is possible. So I put on my big-girl rain boots, stomped my way through the slush, and made it to work in one piece.
I may not feel fantastic, but I am happy to see these slight manifestations on crappy days after giving my brain a chance on easier ones. The sunny ones are there to support the slushy ones.
Safe travels today, everyone:)
2 responses to “Some Hope for Our Brains on a Slushy Day”
I love this, Ginny! It reminds me of another blog I read recently: http://www.alexandrafranzen.com/2015/01/18/today-is-not-over-yet/
Good for you for finding a way to keep going and turn the day around xo
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That’s such a lovely post, thanks for sharing!!