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But What If It’s All Crap?
Last night and I had a super bizarre dream. It was one of those “Peggy Olson” pregnancy dreams – I didn’t know I was even pregnant and then BAM! I had a baby. It was just there. So Ben and I are suddenly walking around with this surprise baby and introducing it to all of…
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Childhood Dreams of Growing Up
Way back in high school, when the “reach for the stars” talks started turning into “where do you see yourself in five years?” talks, my friends are I started chatting more bluntly about our artistic dreams. I always knew I wanted to be an actor, it was encouraged before I was even born. My mother directed shows while she…
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It’s Let It Go Tuesday!
I do NOT enjoy writing negative blog posts. But I do reserve these moments for when it is sadly the healthiest option to get these thoughts out of my relentlessly badgering brain. And when I blog, the opportunity for snarky headers, structured paragraphs, and a happy-go-lucky conclusion actually helps me work through my anger. Because I…
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Maybe there will be Manhattans
The other day I got really excited about having garbage bags. I needed to switch out the garbage and became, perhaps irrationally, thankful that we had our act together to own…garbage bags. So at some point recently, we had the money to buy something in bulk before we moved. And it reminds me that the days of: “Oh…
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Creativity Snooze Button
It was hard getting out of bed this morning. When our upstairs neighbors use their heat, the steam travels up the pipes, making a hundred little stops along its way on the sides of the old metal radiator in our bedroom. In my mind, the steam has transformed itself into little creatures with metal construction worker hats…
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Two Dollar Last Chance Mums
I saved a plant yesterday. I went to Pathmark near our new apartment during a particular grumpy morning. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been thrilled about our new town so far, especially the fulfilling job that doesn’t involve body-checking people on the Path train, fantastic friends nearby, and best of all- a porch to sit on. And yet, I…
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Some Hope for Our Brains on a Slushy Day
The Grumpy Part of the Blog Post I don’t know about anyone else, but I feel the city is struggling today. The 6 inches of slush aren’t helping and I’m assuming a good deal of us were up later lamenting or celebrating the Patriots catching a lucky interception. Whatever it is though, the city is iced…
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Rituals, Direction, and How to Not Kick Your Cat While Doing Yoga
A couple months ago, I read Daily Rituals by Mason Currey, a book that many bloggers have been chatting about recently. Man did this collection make me feel better about myself as an artist. He has collected the daily routines of famous and historic writers, artists, scientists, and other great minds throughout history. By breaking down how…
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Rephrasing the “Fall Back” Question
About four years ago, right after I moved to NYC, I started a word document simply called “Life.” It evolved into my Morning Pages, and sometimes acts as a ranting journal for when I don’t feel like using a pen. Occasionally, especially on snowy days like today, I skim through it and relive getting to…
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An Emotional Person in an Emotionless Job
A little over a month ago, I decided to try out some advice and take a well-paying job for a year or two to save up, pay off that debt, and to get back into those pricey acting classes. I haven’t lost complete hope in this plan, but October did not prove a promising example.…